It's been a VERY long time since I've said anything here, and a lot has changed since my last post. I've decided that I'm not going to go ahead with law school and instead get my PhD in Literature and try to teach. I figure that I'll be happier that way, and I've been working on ways to make myself happier lately. There was a lot of self inflicted drama over not just the last few months, but the last few years. I've let go of a lot of it now thanks to what has been happening over the last couple of months. Honestly, I feel much better at this particular moment.

For those of you who were reading ESM, I don't know that I'll ever get back to it. It has been 4 years since I wrote anything for it. However, I was reading over the first chapter and wondering whether or not I could go back and re-write some of it. I'm not sure that I will ever get around to it, but it's another idea to keep my mind occupied and get back into writing in a more serious way. However, I am writing again and not just poetry.

I quit the band that I was playing bass for and am now in the process of working on my own private project which is titled Shadow of the Eclipse. The named is borrowed from the name of the EQ2 guild that my friend Jesse and I made. She actually came up with the name. She has nothing to do with the project though. She's actually at least part of the cause for my starting it. Mostly I'm working on finding something intrinsic that I use to get to reconnect myself to myself. It's probably going to end up being something of a big mish mash of stuff inspired by The Smashing Pumpkins, Rush, Pearl Jam, and other odd bands I like.

I've got some good advice from some good friends over the last few years that I've never listened to until just recently. I've lost some good friends because of it. I've spent a lot of time whining about things I could easily deal with. The key to this, I believe Kelli said it to me as well, is to get up each day and try to find a reason to keep going. That's what I'm working on, and my reason right now is so that I can get to know myself and learn what makes life worth living.

Other than that, I got a second kitten. You all remember Postino of course. He was adorable back then, but now he's a HUGE cat. He's really big and really skiddish. Because of his skiddishness, I got another kitten that would be a little more affection. Her name is Aleta and she is a precious little baby. She's a sicky too at the moment. She's got a cold, but she's getting better. I'll post a picture of her in my scraps at some point. Anyway, that's really all that's going on. Oh, I got my BA in English Literature. I'm pretty proud of that. Now I'm taking a year off before I go to grad school. I need some time to myself. That's all for now.

-T-